I've been debating this post for a couple weeks now and finally decided I should make it. I wanted to let everyone here know how very much I appreciate this forum, how friendly and welcoming everyone is and how much I've learned and will continue to learn here. I love how arguments are intelligent debates, not flame wars; I love how so many of us from different areas of the world and different ages and life experiences can all come together about a topic we love. I suffer from major depression disorder, acute anxiety and PTSD. Three weeks ago I had to go back to the behavioral health center for a visit against my will, again, after a (thankfully failed) suicide attempt. I don't say that to dump something heavy on relative strangers, or to garner comments, but because it's just what happened to me, because of my illness. I'm not embarrassed that I have a mental illness but it's also not something I tend to bring up because I just, you know, want to be normal. Hiding behind an appearance of normalcy on the internet can be both a blessing a curse for me. It's a blessing because I can be who I want to be, instead of being a label. But it's also a curse because often people I don't interact with daily don't know the extent of my illness; it's not like you can see it, especially online. So, I bring it up now because in times when I'm at my worst I tend to withdraw from everything, which of course only makes things worse. Something or someone has to really mean something to me, has to really matter in my life, to keep me from pulling away. This beekeeping forum is something I miss when I don't visit. Even if I don't have much to say because good answers have already been said, or I'm just in a dark place, I feel like I could come here at any time and be connected to people. So thank you to Charles and all the admins that keep this site running so well, and thank you to all the members who make this such a wonderful thing to be a part of. You just never know when that silly joke you post or random smiley you add to a sly comment makes someone who normally lives in a dark place see a little sunshine for a while.